My last Twitter post read "T-minus 3 days until total sterility...and no more pain. Life 2.0, guess I need to figure out what's next.". After a 6 year battle with infertility, cysts, endometriosis, and now fibroids, I'm getting fixed. It is bitter sweet, but it shouldn't be. I have already made peace with not having children, but the finality of it is making it kind of hard. I am still going through with it and still feel good about my decision to do this, but I am only human to question my life and what's next.
First, let me explain. I am not having a hysterectomy. Close, but no. I won't be going into early menopause (which I am sure would quickly end my marriage), and I get to keep pretty much all my original plumbing. Sorry if this is T.M.I. The procedure is called Novasure. It's a quick and easy in office kind of party. I will get to be anesthetized and will have a short and sweet recovery.
The question still remains...what's next? OK, so no kids (which was already kind of a done deal), just me. Just me and Frank and my cute as pie 3 Pomeranians. There is still some fulfillment needed here people. I still need to make my mark and have a purpose!!!
I have decided I am going to pour myself into my job and spend more time obtaining the body I have wanted for a long time and even more importantly, to be the best me I can be. I want to travel for work. I am the perfect person for this. No children to take care of, I am well traveled, and I am (although shy at times) pretty good with people skills. And that's just the beginning of what I want to accomplish. I want to tone up my body and be as healthy as I can be. None of which will happen over night, but will. It will happen.
I still respect my friends children and would do antything for them if ever needed because I am always a good friend. If you know me, you know I'm not a bitch...at heart. So here's to life 2.0. May the next half be WAY BETTER than the first half.
Cheers!
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Cheers to you, Amanda! I'm glad you're weighing the good and bad and going into the procedure with everything thought out. I have heard endometriosis is quite painful and lots of trouble. Add the other issues and it's so much to deal with. I hope this procedure brings you peace and happiness. You are deserving!
I'M so sorry.... could you still freeze a few eggs just in case? our doc at hfc said they last forever, you never know down the road things could change etc.
I made a post about infertility on my blog...
HS
I had an hysterectomy due to endometriosis. Dont' think there was another option 28 years ago.
You have a plan and a great attitude so you will be OK.
Cheers
I understand how you feel. I got to have one child but due to complications had to have a hysterectomy. Everyone says at least you got to have one. What they don't realise is this didn't make my grief any less. Everything was taken but the ovaries but then several years later, had to have them removed also due to the threat of cancer. It has taken me a long time to accept my fate but I came to realise that when one door closes another opens and I need to trust the process. I will keep you in my prayers for the surgery.
Sorry this is a bit long winded.
God Bless
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