Thursday, June 25, 2009

Dominican Part 2

I finally got around to getting the Jeep Safari pics off Frank's phone. We took a jeep caravan into the mountains, saw a spontaneous cock fight, and finished up at a beach. I forgot my camera, so Frank took a few pics with his iPhone.

Frank doing his best Matthew McconaugHEY! impression...

Friday, June 19, 2009

Facebook/Life Changes

Facebook and Life Changes. No, not necessarily in that order...but I wanted to clarify some things. Yes, I did change my marital status on Facebook. I also changed ALL of my personal info. I just had to do it one item at a time. I decided to take off my personal info from Facebook. I removed my blog and my birthday, etc. Frank and I are FANTASTIC! No trouble in paradise. I just decided I don't want to volunteer personal stats. People who are on my facebook already know me, so why do they need to know my birthday and place of birth? Anyway, I just wanted to clarify for those who were curious. ALL IS GOOD IN THE LAND OF KIRK!

To address the Wild Child post, I want to elaborate on that. For the past 4 years I have been trying to get pregnant and every life decision I made hung on the whole premise of "what if I get pregnant". Not anymore. I am going to live my life for me and only me. I will buy whatever car I want to buy, Porsche excluded :( and I will do more abs at the gym..ha! Just stupid things like that. I would also like to try some more adventurous vacations. Go rafting or maybe take up Scuba again. I don't know, but I do feel almost re-born in a way. I feel very free and I love it.

Thursday, June 18, 2009

Wild Child

Lately I have been "off", but it is hard to explain without embarrassment. All I can say is that I need to grow up. I feel this urge to be wild and to go through a 2nd...2nd decade, if that makes any sense. I am not sure if it is because I have decided that I am ok if I never have a child or that I just spent 9 days decompressing in the Caribbean. I have not been happier in a long time. My marriage is great, my job is great, but I just feel restless. I need to find a way to release my inner wild-child safely without damaging anything or anyone. I'm itchy.

Thursday, June 11, 2009

To Try Or Not To Try...Should It Be A Question?

When we went on vacation, I thought that would be a good time to discuss the future of my fertility and our plans for a family. That didn't happen. Instead, I find myself at a cross-road. Frank has been and will always be happy either way (with or without kids). He has such a go with the flow attitude, it makes me sick sometimes. I mean, I envy it...I really do. Lately, I actually think I might be adopting that attitude. In the 4 years we have been trying, I have been here before. I get tired of trying. Tired of thinking about it. Well, I am back here again. I have so many "what ifs" right now. What if I get pregnant and our marriage fails due to stress? What if I get pregnant and regret that we can't just up and go like we are so used to? What if I get pregnant and our kid turns out to be a nightmare even though we did the best we could do raising it? Right now, I am content. I like my life right now. I don't feel empty. But will I feel empty when I am old and alone with no family? Would I regret not having children? Probably. We do have still have options that we have not tried and I have not been as aggressive as I could be. That is the other part that makes me wonder. If I wanted this 1000%, wouldn't I have already done everything in my power? In a way, I feel numb to anything family related. But that kind of feels good right now.

Tuesday, June 9, 2009

Dominican Republic 2009

Trip report and pics as promised. This year we went to La Romana, Dominican Republic. It was a relaxing and interesting 9 days. Dominican Republic is a huge European holiday hot spot. We were suprised to not see that many American's. The resort was nice. We stayed at the Dreams La Romana. English is not the first, second, or third language on the island or at the resort. Because of that, it made it somewhat hard to communicate (both ways). Fortunately, Frank does speak some spanish, so that helped some. We are glad to be home after a layover Sunday night in Miami (unplanned of course). Here are some of the pics!

This is the little lunch place we ate nearly every day.

View from lunch

This is a private little pool over by one of the spa gazebos looking over the beach

Day 2 - Catalina Island. Frank did some diving and I did some snorkeling and laying on the beach (which I found is something I am super good at!)

"I'm ScubaMan"...

ScubaMan and his trusty sidekick (at least for the day)

ScubaMan - getting the girl, savin the day!

Shakira's house...according to Gri Gri divers.

Marina at Casa De Campo (the neighborhood Shakira lives in)

View from my lounge chair on the beach

Other random images from the trip

We also did a Jeep Safari into the mountains and a catamaran sail to Isla Soana. I will try post those pics tomorrow because this is already a long post. Since we are on the topic of vacations and if you are planning a cruise, my friend Shannon has a cool new blog with some good info on it. It's not just for vacation tips, but it also has other life tips aswell. You can find her at!

Monday, June 8, 2009

Vacation 2009

We just got back from our vacation today. It was a long 9 days(make that 10 with our unexpected lay-over in Miami last night). I have some good pics and I will be posting a trip report sometime this week.

Side note: I read the 1st two Twilight books and now I see what all the hype is about. They were amazing! I am definately hooked. How hooked you ask? So hooked, that I ran up to Blockbuster and bought a used copy to watch tonight. Sad. Sad.