Wednesday, August 19, 2009

Following The Formula

When did it become necessary to follow a certain formula for life? Birth + School + Work + Marriage + Kids = Happiness? Says who? I thought I had to follow this formula. I thought this was how you did "life", not to mention I have never been good at math. Since deciding not to have children, I have been through a cornucopia of emotions and discoveries. It's been hard on me and Frank and confusing to my friends and those who don't know me all that well. I guess it can best be described as a "mid-life crisis". As embarrassing as it is to admit, I am having one. I have gone through episodes of partying, episodes of depression, episodes of self-doubt, and episodes of not knowing what to do with myself and my life (to name a few). I know I am not the only female in her 30's to go through this scenario, but it feels like it. Sheesh! It's time to start a new chapter of my life and it is scary. Now if I can just figure out how to do it...

1 comment:

Shannon said...

It kind of seems like I followed the formula except I did it in reverse order. We made the mistake of following along and going from our starter house to a bigger one, only to realize that is SO not us. I think everybody has to figure everything out for themselves and when you don't do the norm, it's a bit of a challenge but worthwhile to figure out.